My Journal Problem

I'm a board member and liaison for Rockhurst's Advanced College Credit Program (ACCP). If you're reading this blog and are among its target audience--prospective RU students--there's a chance you've heard of ACCP. It's a program wherein RU courses get taught in local high schools. If you're lucky, you've taken one such course. If you're really lucky, you've taken College Composition at Liberty North High School with Mrs. Kimberly Brownlee.

(go Eagles!)

I visited Mrs. Brownlee's class the day her students had just finished a unit on the college application essay and were moving on into a unit on "Culture and Ethnicity."

If you ask me, such units are hard to start, especially in a classroom of mostly white, suburban Midwesterners. Growing up more or less all three of those things, I always assumed I had no "culture," that culture was the very thing that got left behind when the various people who became my grandparents and great-grandparents passed through Ellis Island. The soundtrack of my daily life was not cultural but consumer, not the tin-whistled and bodráned but bleached and Muzaked®.

To dispel that myth of culturelessness, Mrs. Brownlee had her students (and me!) journal about "culture."

Now, I have to admit that, as shocking as it may sound to hear an English prof say it, I dislike journal writing. I don't keep a journal myself and cannot, with a straight face, use the word "journal" as a verb. I have no problem, on the other hand, using the word "workshop" as a verb and here's why:

When one "journals," one removes herself from the public sphere. She interacts in private with her impressions about a topic. When one "workshops," on the other hand, she confers with peers. She doesn't retreat from public interaction. My journal aversion stems from my commitment to the idea that the most valuable kind of academic writing is that which anticipates exchange with a reader--that which interacts with a complexly-conceived audience. In short, good writing is a palpable kind of social engagement, not a substitution or replacement for such engagement. With such a philosophy, it's been easy for me to (over the years) demote journal writing, to do away with it altogether. Journaling, I came to believe, consigns an already alarmingly self-centered demographic (teenagers) to the clammy cellar of egocentrism.

And I was wrong. When Mrs. Brownlee had us journal about culture, our knee-jerk reactions to the topic--reactions along the "white-people-don't-have-culture" lines--slowly melted away. By the third cycle of responding to prompts like "What do you say when you greet people?," "What customs do you follow when you eat meals?," "Did your family inherit its customs or make them up?," "Do any of these customs cause problems?," "Does anyone make fun of your family customs?," students had real purchase on the topic. They understood its weight and consequences. Stuff got real. One student talked about how the structurelessness of his home life was becoming a problem now that he wanted to bring a girlfriend home to dinner, another talked about the ripple effects of her family's no-coddling sensibility.

Journaling did not invite students into a private relationship with the topic. It did not endorse the "no one understands me" ethos of young people's self-perception. It compelled students into very real, very public conversations about issues central to both to their personal lives and to American life in general.

It converted me.

Now, to some of my students' horror, I've started applying this conversion to my own teaching. When I explained to my Literature and Cinema class that, owing to my conversion on journaling, we would conclude each film screening with a journaling exercise, Kenshasha rolled her eyes and said, "You shouldn't be allowed to go back to high school."

"Journal about it," I said.

Quicksanded

How does one backdate a blog post?

If I knew the answer to that question, I would live in less daily fear that I will receive an angry email from someone in Admissions (or is it PR/Marketing?) at Rockhurst reminding me of the dereliction of my blogging duties. Such a colossal chunk of time has passed since my last post that I may have to forfeit my blog stipend for this semester.

Why ain't I been posting? Swamped! Actually, "quicksanded" is the more accurate metaphor for my relationship to the surrounding conditions of my professional life this semester.

Ok, and I've been carving pumpkins.

That's mine on the right. Its "mouth" is the letters "S" and "J"
(My wife and my first initials, as printed on our wedding invitations.) 

Time Mgmt

This week, in my First-Year Seminar, I taught a subject I've never taught before: Time Management. 

I am fairly incapable of faking expertise in a subject (I'm downright hostile to the idea), and time management is a proficiency that I have definitely not mastered. I'm not bad. I'm never late (chronically early, actually) and I don't miss deadlines. But I have no coherent system for time management. What's worse, I tend to wax poetic about stuff, especially banal stuff like keeping to-do lists and writing in planners. I probably spent too much time marveling over the good time management strategies my students shared and not enough time offering any of my own wisdom about time management. 

But students do some smart stuff. Claire keeps all her academic deadlines/appointments in a planner and all her social reminders on her phone. Nice compartmentalization tactic. Ariana texts herself to remind herself of important, pending deadlines. Chelse is all about the Outlook reminders. 

Me, I put my pocket planner under the document camera to demonstrate the pleasure I take in crossing things off my daily to-do list. I also had to explain my unorthodox phonetic spelling of the word "students" (as "stoontz"). It's a spelling a friend of mine used once a long time ago in an email and it made me laugh. 

It's always important to make yourself laugh, I said. (Here's the great wisdom I offered.) The best thing you can do for the version of yourself who is going to read whatever note-to-self you write is to make sure that that future you knows that the past you, the one who wrote the note, had a sense of humor and that that past you loves the future you and knows that everything will be ok, despite the fact that that future you has to actually do the thing that the past you wrote down.

I also shared this: 

After class, I couldn't help but ask myself: Does the fact that I showed students that instead of teaching them how to make an Excel spreadsheet about their daily routines make me a good teacher or an awful teacher?

I posted this very question to my facebook profile and got nine "likes." We're all so crunched for time that all we can do for a "friend" experiencing self-doubt is offer a virtual thumb-up. 

Next week's FYS topic: Emotional Intelligence, wherein I probably fail to resist the urge to show this litmus test of late-adolescent angst. 

The Whole Thing?

I'm currently directing a senior thesis on Herman Melville's novel Moby-Dick (1851). Have you read it? The whole thing?

My uncle Steve thinks that anyone who says she's read the whole thing is lying. He doesn’t even believe me, and I've read the it twice: once last summer and once--in a real welcome-to-graduate-school experience--during a two-week span of time that also included my reading of Dickens's 900-page novel Bleak House and most of Nietzsche's The Birth of Tragedy. Needless to say, I skipped a lot during those two weeks. 

In fact, it's during those two weeks that my friend Steve (yes, uncle Steve and now friend Steve) and I had a serious talk, at a place called the Rose and Crown (Omaha, Nebraska’s version of Melville's Spouter Inn) about whether it mattered if one read "the whole thing" or not. I was anxious about the habit I was developing of skipping while reading, a habit I developed as a response to the insane demands of grad school.

Though it's been twelve years since Steve and I had that conversation, I still remember what he said:

(1) "Reading the whole thing is overrated" and

(2) "So let's say you read all of Moby-Dick; hell, let's say you write Moby-Dick. Then what? There’s still Jupiter and it’s still bigger than anything you've got."

Now, Steve was likely three sheets to the wind when he said that second thing. (That’s right. I just used a euphemism for drunkenness that originates in nineteenth-century nautical terminology. That was for you, Melville.) I’ll translate. Here’s what Steve actually said:

(1) “The point of reading is not simply to consume a book. One must interact with it, respond to it. And one can genuinely respond to a book even if he hasn't read the whole thing. Furthermore, reading the whole thing does not automatically entitle one to claim that he has had a meaningful experience with a book.”

This first point prompted me to forward Steve this now classic bit of fake journalism.

(2) "What kind of accomplishment is it to have read (or even written) a great novel, when that accomplishment is placed in a context of creation that includes such unthinkable wonders as the planet Jupiter?" 

Now that question knocked me out. It still does.

In the intervening years, I’ve become an avid read-the-whole-thinger. I kind of always was one, but I also always knew that reading the whole thing is never enough, and that those who think it is enough are either smug or callow. They either think (a) reading is way more like bird watching than it actually is or (b) reading the whole thing is as valuable an activity as having a genuine interaction with the text.

Maybe what we call “literacy” is really just pre-literacy. Maybe reading a book is the least thing that we can do with the book, not the only thing. Maybe literate individuals read because they have to, because reading is the prerequisite to doing the thing that they really want to do, which is create, interact, comingle their ideas with those of the author.

For me, reading has always been means to an end, never an end in itself. Books are the things I go through to get to people. 

Reading in public

My new favorite blog is Underground New York Public Library. It's a lot like my wife's favorite blog, Sartorialist, but instead of being about people wearing stylish clothes, it's about people reading books in public.

Here's a typical example from each:


Sometimes, it's hard to tell which blog is which ...
 

... especially when everyone's reading. 

Is there some correlation between stylish people and people who read? Maybe.

But I think the more important correlation is that both kinds of people are interesting in some way--both kinds stick out in a crowd, both invite (intentionally or not) the kind of attention that earns them a place on someone's flickr feed. Both kinds of people are assertively themselves, wholly contextualized into their environments (i.e., looking natural) while at the same time doing their own thing. That's pretty cool. In fact, it might be a useable definition of that illusive trait of "cool."

Anyway, this interest in photos of people reading in public carries over into the classroom. In my Literature and Cinema class, the first film we watched this semester was Adaptation, a movie about one screenwriter's near failed attempt to adapt Susan Orlean's The Orchid Thief. 

The movie's about how hard it is to make something as public as a movie out of something as private experience of reading a beautiful book about flowers.

I started the semester with this movie because it's a way of starting a conversation about what it means to write and read stories. Writing a story involves deciding how to translate an experience into a coherent narrative, with a beginning, middle, and end. And reading a story involves interacting with those decisions, projecting in your mind the world, people, and actions that the writer's decisions convey in her story.

Adaptation includes a lot of scenes of people reading:

Susan Orlean (played by Meryl Streep) reading about Orchids.

Susan Orlean having a sublime experience while reading. 

Notice the private setting--the home office--and the private rapture.

Compare that to this:

Screenwriter Charlie Kaufman (Nicholas Cage) reading Orlean's book. 

Kaufman is digging into the text not for pleasure but because he has to make something out of it. Specifically, he has to make a movie. He starts obsession over the book, specifically over its unadaptability. Can one make a page of beautiful words into a screen of entertaining sights and sounds? That is a question I will be asking my students a lot this semester.

Kaufman fails to interact with Orlean's text. He simply loves her book. (He may even love Orlean.) But he can't offer either thing anything in return.

In other words, Charlie is bad at being in public. At a diner, when a nice server shows some interest in the book he's reading and in doing the job of being a nice server ...

Charlie "misreads" her kindness and (very awkwardly) asks her out. 

She gets scared and tells her boss. The message: Reading less dangerous than socializing, and the former is likely to make the latter more difficult.

Now, cognitive scientists have discovered that the opposite is the case, that reading--especially reading literature--enhances one's ability to navigate the complexities of social interaction, to more fully inhabit the moments in which they interact with other people.

And that's a long-term hope of mine: That the stereotype of the socially-awkward bookworm will die out and be replaced by, well, this guy.

The quote-unquote "College Experience"

So I volunteered to teach a section of "first-year seminar," which is a one-credit hour course that first-semester Rockhurst students take.

One of the goals of the course is to acclimate students to university culture at Rockhurst. Tomorrow is our first day. Well, it's our first day in the classroom. I met my section last week. We had lunch. I learned a lot about each of the students, like how Logan has 14 chickens (13, actually; one just died) and can name each of them, and how Claire really likes giraffes, and how one student ain't afraid of receding hairlines.

But, tomorrow, I get to the serious work of acclimating these students to the college experience, which is why I'm starting with the "quote-unquote 'college experience'"--the fantasy of college life that is peddled by Hollywood movies.

My plan is to take students on a jaunt through popular campus movies of the late twentieth century, ask them how popular representations of campuses have changed in the twenty-first century, and then ask them how their actual first week on campus compares to their expectations of week one.

Starting with the 1970s:

Animal House (1978)

This is a good place to start, I think, not only because of Animal House is THE iconic campus film, but also because it's likely to be a film that is equally alienating to me and my students. I've never admitted this to anyone, but I do not get John Belushi. He's never seemed even remotely funny to me. Tomorrow's my chance to see if ol' Bluto means as little to my students as he did to me. 

The 80s!

Real Genius (1985)

There are so many great things about this movie. As a kid, it convinced me that college was this magical place where eccentrics ran amok and created exploding apples for their teachers and mini ice ages in their dorm halls. It was were mysterious, bearded men lived in underground lairs behind trapdoors in dorm closets and cracked the codes of corporate sweepstakes. It was were you became friends with the kinds of people you never knew existed and, with that friendship, foiled your evil professor's plan to sell laser technology to the U.S. military. This movie convinced me to go to college and stay there.  

The dream of the 90s is alive in PCU

PCU (1994)

I was doing some serious mental preparation for college when I first saw this 1990s homage to the fratty hijinks of Animal House. I never bought this film's message, which is basically that all that alienated, angsty Gen-Xers need to be happy is a healthy dose of 1970s kegger nihilism. But I did aspire to the cool comprehension of college displayed by Jeremy Piven's character. Plus, I was still recovering from having had my heart broken by the movie, Rudy (1993), and I liked seeing John Favreau again (even if in dreds). 

And now for a very special episode of Generation X Goes to College: 

Higher Learning (1995)

Higher Learning kind of blew my mind. It was like that "very special episode" of your favorite sitcom (the "sitcom" in this analogy being campus movies) where some downright serious issues got addressed. This movie was a real introduction to identity politics and their stakes in young people's lives. It was also my introduction to John Singleton. 

If Val Kilmer in Real Genius taught me how to want to be a college student, Laurence Fishburne in Higher Learning taught me how to want to be a college professor. Minus the bowtie.  

Welcome 2.0

One of my very first blog posts was about how I'd recently learned a new technology--the animated movie-making software at xtranormal. It's been nearly eight months, and in that time, I have not advanced at all in my knowledge of that technology. In fact, looking over the new "Welcome" movie that I just made for my Literature and Cinema class, I notice how similar that "movie" is to my first effort:

In a half a year, all I have taught myself how to do is make bald men stand amid blank chroma key mattes and talk and gesture awkwardly. To boot, I apparently don't understanding continuity editing at all--I haven't seen that many alienating jump cuts in a single minute of film since that car scene from Breathless.

So I haven't grown as a filmmaker. This fact was clearest to me when I stumbled upon this short film made by a recent Rockhurst U graduate and soon-to-be super-famous person:

 

Both a brilliant film and a world-class morale boost, no?

Dear incoming and future freshperson, take my advice: Watch this film, a lot. Bookmark it and re-watch it whenever you feel the duress of demanding professors and the strain of your own lofty professional ambitions.

If I'd only seen such a film when I was a freshman, I'd have had fewer bouts of alienation, or I'd at least have been inspired to make better movies.

Happy fall!